I tapped into the idea of shedding my Christian identity and the mental struggle of letting go of my faith in order to find peace with how my ancestors’ sense of being was colonized. But it was a nightmare thinking I was going against everything I believed and had faith in. In Tarot, this card can mean letting go or going through a struggle to find a solution/peace. In “Nightmare,” I portray the struggle of feeling uncomfortable, in homage to how my ancestors had to assimilate or die, both only ending in tragedy.