I felt like a traitor when I had thoughts of walking away from the church. But I soon realized many others felt the same as me. Being Christian, but knowing my ancestors didn’t worship a Christian god, didn’t sit right with me. In ”Traitor” I explore this tarot card’s meaning of victory by betrayal through the lens of renouncing my Christianity. I also reflect on this card’s meaning of emptiness after hard struggle (hollow skulls), as I lacked a part of my identity after walking away from the church, but I ultimately learned to lean into the ancestors to help guide me.